Charlie Carver recalls finding out his dad was gay, aged 11: “My blood felt tainted”

The Teen Wolf star admitted it felt like “a shameful inheritance”.

Charlie Carver has opened up about the time he found out his father was a gay man at a time when he was trying to keep his own sexuality hidden.

“At 11 years old I found out my father was a faggot,” Charlie wrote for a special LGBT+ piece for Playboy. “I hate that word, but it’s precisely how the news resonated with me at the time, so I will write it.

“This was, what, 1999? Before the first civil unions, and not before Matthew Shepard.

“I’d already conditioned myself to believe that any expression of gayness could lead to being tied up to a fence, and so you bet I was doing my damndest to pass in a disguise of frosted tips and Team USA soccer jerseys.

“But with Dad’s news, the hammer finally fell on a loaded chamber and I was forced to reckon with what felt like was a shameful inheritance.”

He continued: “My blood felt tainted. I assumed his was. By the end of that year, I’d changed my name, lost 30 percent of my body weight, asked to die and was filled with such profound despair that, looking back on family photos from the time, I still don’t recognize myself.”

Charlie came out publicly last year – 10 years after he came out as gay to his family.

The actor recently explained that he was at a point his life where he felt like he was ready to “take on that conversation” with the wider public.

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